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What is our society’s obsession with child prodigies?

I have to reference this video again. It’s Mercedes Cheung playing Sarasate. However, this time, I’m going to be drawing a comparison between that and this video I found of Brianna Kahane on Ellen.

This will be my once-a-month-speak-from-angry-Asian position post. I know I’ve said some not-so-nice things about Mercedes’s playing, but Zigeunerweisen is a lot more challenging than Vivaldi’s Concerto. Two things come to mind. 1) Brianna Kahane is probably more along the lines of my “just because you can, doesn’t mean you should” philosophy and is, in fact, playing something that suits her skill level at this point in her life. However, in terms of impressiveness, 2) shouldn’t Mercedes Cheung be on Ellen? I mean, a 6-yr-old playing Sarasate and Paganini is pretty darn impressive, especially since, you know, she really is playing it. Ellen’s show, being the huge mass media outlet that it is, has the capability of rocketing these kids into the public’s eye. So who does she (or, her producers) pick? Not the one with the Asian face, that I can say.

It’s obviously a lot more complex than just this, but that’s all I can come up with at 2 in the morning after 6 days of an almost non-stop cycle of work/eat/sleep/eat/work/coffee/dogs repeat many times.

Ironic that I still blog about this when I want to academically get AWAY from all this race politics and speaking from a position of repression and defensiveness thing I feel like I have to do when talking about Asian American issues. My thesis will be looking at the race of classical musicians, but I think it’ll be on a more global level and will deal with issues of cultural imperialism rather than race dynamics. Obviously lots of overlap here, but I think it’s different than speaking from within a framework in which these struggles over racial inequality have been written into our history. I’m hoping the position I take can be not-so-angry-and-repressed, and look at it more meta-ly (see, I told you it’s late – or, rather, very very early).

How the heck did this turn into some weird introspective thought process of my academic path?

 
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Posted by on November 30, 2009 in Uncategorized

 

Natural Cause?

I found some sad news today. One of the members of Boyzone, Stephen Gately, died recently of “natural causes” (this apparently happened back in October, but I’m only hearing it for the first time today. I remember them best from Andrew Lloyd Webber’s 50th birthday performance, when my mom and I were both in love with them – especially Gately and Ronan Keating.

In any case, I never understood how someone could die from “natural causes”. I mean, apart from my dislike for the term “natural” or “normal”, you die of SOMETHING. Respiratory failure, cardiac arrest, SOMETHING. Wikipedia tells me that Gately died of pulmonary oedema caused by congenital heart defect. Why can’t people just say that, rather than using the rather cop-out, and overly generalized term of “natural causes”? Saying someone died from “natural causes” merely intrigues us and makes us dig for more info about how they really died.

Anyway, some quick thoughts before bed.

 
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Posted by on November 28, 2009 in Uncategorized

 

Updates from North Carolina

Wow. I’ve been really MIA from this blogging thing for a while – ironic, since the Business of Media course I’m TAing requires my students to blog 2-3 times a week. I excuse my non-blogginess to spending time reading their blogs every week.

I’m back in North Carolina – taking a break before I submit my application to Northwestern’s PhD Program, blogging, listening to Dvorak’s New World Symphony, and air-conducting in the middle of Open Eye Cafe. I haven’t gotten any weird looks yet, but they’re bound to happen soon. Cris finds it amusing by puncturing the silence with, “Listening to something good?” Oh yea.

I’m also drinking some cafe mocha – and I can’t seem to sit still. It remains to be seen if I will completely crash in about an hour and spend the rest of the evening laid out on the couch feeling nauseous. Hmm…. I should probably get this application submitted before anything bad happens from this coffee…

Ok, hooray! Northwestern submitted. After completing my statement of purpose (or, really, slashing it down to meet the length requirement), took me another 3 hours to finish all the misc stuff that needed to go in.

**** five hours later ****
We’re sitting around watching Eddie Izzard. I think we learned most of our US and European history from this guy. So full I’m about to explode. I think this weekend is going to be defined by constant food coma. And my head constantly feels like it’s going to explode too. North Carolina, for some reason, wreaks havoc on my allergies. I’ve probably gone through the equivalent of an entire box of tissues since I’ve been here. I think it’s because there are things that are actually alive here — you know, in NYC, the toxins and smog in the air have killed all microorganisms. Except the cockroaches.

OK, I should concentrate on Eddie. Realize this blog is a bit disjointed, but oh well.

 
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Posted by on November 27, 2009 in Uncategorized

 

Tragedy at NYU

As I’m sure everyone’s heard already, a student at NYU committed suicide this morning in Bobst Library. It has been a sad day, what with the loss of Claude Levi-Strauss and Qian Xuesun, one must be wondering, what’s going on today?

I’m sorry if I’m a bit harsh here in this blog, but after hearing about the NYU suicide, I got very upset. I’m still pretty upset. It’s not as if I knew him, but I think I get very frustrated when I hear someone taking their own life. Very frustrated. I think it’s the stupidest, most selfish thing you can do. What are you thinking? Are you thinking about everyone who loves you, who you’re ripping apart? Do you know how many people out there would have given anything to have had the chances and opportunities you have, and they’re not able to because their lives were taken away from them by external forces? And you have the gall to take your own life?

I can’t say I understand, that I understand the dark places he might have been in, the situations he might have been going through. Even in my darkest days (and believe me, I’ve been through enough of those in recent times), the thought of ending my life never crossed my mind. I would never EVER cause that much pain to the people I love. I don’t cry for him. I cry for the ones who loved him, and I’m angry for them. For what he took away from them.

“You should have taken a long break instead of a long drop, instead of a leap of faith.” ~Brandi Carlile

 
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Posted by on November 3, 2009 in Uncategorized

 

Eerily (and unknowingly) repeating the past

*I’m at a serious writing block and a block in general for academic stuff right now, so I decided to take the time and finish this blog entry….* I started writing this on Halloween, and am finishing it up now.

It’s funny how elementary some of our thesis topics can sound. Alex and I were at Dr. Fox’s tonight after the Park Slope Halloween Parade, and we were sitting around chatting, when the topic of our theses came up. The conversation went something like this:

Alex: I’m doing my thesis on Hulu!
Cynthia: I’m looking at Classical Music on YouTube!
Alex: Man, it’s we’re in 2nd grade, how simple we can make our thesis sound!

Anyway, the funny thing is, it never occurred to me how eerily similar my “journey” to find my Master’s thesis topic echoes my senior thesis project at Northwestern, until this morning (in the shower, where most of my epiphanies happen, I suppose).

For those of you who don’t remember (I mean, why would you?), my senior thesis was a 25-minute film called “The Ship Game”, based on three childhood friends who ended up going to the same college – a music composition major (Sarah), a violinist (Audrey), and the third character (I actually can’t even remember the character’s name – I just remember Henry Martone played him) – but he was the violinist’s brother, and the music composer’s boyfriend). The story focused mostly on the violinist, having something to do with getting into Juilliard and getting accepted into some violin competition (you know how I found it? I googled “international violin competition” and picked one that sounded good and foreign – hey, I never said this movie was well-researched)

Oh wait, I think I remember. The competition was called Hanover. I think. Maybe I just think it’s Hanover because that’s where my brother goes to school.

Anyway. Before settling on this particular narrative, I shot a film the previous year that was completely cast Asian American, and echoed some of the soap operatic story lines of Korean dramas. It was natural to think about doing something involving the community again for my senior thesis, but, for some reason, I wasn’t excited about it. I don’t think I even got as far as any sort of outline or storyline before I settled on a story that was based on a childhood game I played, then took it further to explore themes of drug dependency and suicide. Hmm. Ok, anyway. The point is, I went back to my roots in classical music. Strangely. And, on top of that, no one in my cast was Asian American (which I got a little bit of flack for).

Ok, so this pattern is repeating in grad school now. My original thesis topic was looking at Asian American artists in the digital realm, and this whole idea of “making space” because on the Internet, we can “publish, then filter” rather than in the real world, where we must be filtered first before publishing. I just wasn’t excited about it though. I came to this realization when I found myself talking more about Alex’s Hulu’s project more than my own…and more excitedly.

After much soul-searching (and many a late night watching too many YouTube videos), and Hahn-Bin’s concert at Carnegie, which I couldn’t seem to stop talking about for the next two weeks, I decided to tackle questions I had about how we perceive and consume classical music, and how that changes on the Internet (because I just love the Internet), or in general, when the venue changes.

So, interestingly, I’m back to this whole classical music thing. Who says history doesn’t repeat?

I apologize for the discombobulation of this blog. They started banging and clanging and doing construction on my apartment complex very VERY early this morning, which kept waking me up over the next four hours. I tried putting earbuds in and turning up a lullaby very loud, but that only seemed to help marginally. Grrrr.

 
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Posted by on October 31, 2009 in Uncategorized

 

Grace cracks me up

Grace: who are u mtg with tomorrow?

me: lisa gitelman
I have a paper due for her on Wednesday
11:10 PM Grace: oh
the death of paper thing
11:13 PM me: what?
no no
social life of paper!
LIFE of paper!
 
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Posted by on October 26, 2009 in Uncategorized

 

Wet, Rainy, Windy, COLD

…is how Chicago welcomes me and Ray back home. We just got in, immediately inhaled Jimmy John’s, bought some snacks for the weekend, and are holing up in the hotel until we have to brave the weather and head downtown to meet Teresa for dinner! Tonight, Lou Malnati’s deep dish pizza. That is the mission.

Chicago food consumed so far:
Jimmy John’s

 
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Posted by on October 22, 2009 in Uncategorized

 

pink netbook

I’m at the Best Buy near my apartment right now typing this blog out on an HP Netbook – Intel Atom Processor N270. I’ve been thinking about getting a Netbook, but then I think, why bother? I am going on two trips before the end of a very VERY busy semester and was thinking a Netbook might help in terms of making sure I get work done on the road. But, Netbooks cost money, and I already have a laptop. I’m just not sure I need one, although it would be nice…

Ahh decisions. I thought I was better at this decision thing than most people… if I get one, I’d like to get one before my Chicago trip on Thursday (yea, Thursday, and if I get it before then, I think I’d be wondering if it were just an impulse buy).

Ahhh!!!

Oh, I just noticed that this one is out of stock. Splendid. I guess that makes my decision (at least for tonight) easier.

 
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Posted by on October 16, 2009 in Uncategorized

 

Unsentimentality

I received this email today:

“Dear Steinhardt Graduate Student:

Are you in graduating in January or May? Would you like your picture taken in
academic attire to give out to family, friends or as a souvenir of your
accomplishment?”

(and then there were more details of when and where and who and what and all that good stuff that I didn’t read because…)

Am I just way too unsentimental if my gut reaction was “Uh…no, thank you.”

 
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Posted by on October 15, 2009 in Uncategorized

 

Night at Carnegie aka "You Clearly Didn’t Get It"

Violinist Hahn-Bin‘s sold-out debut at Carnegie Hall last night was, in a word, exhilarating. Other words I’d use are amazing, edgy, revelatory (for me). The entire night was mind-blowing – not just because great music was being performed by a phenomenal musician, but because of the audience dynamics. This post isn’t meant to be a critique of Hahn-Bin’s performance, but rather a rumination on how we listen to classical music concerts, and think about the conventions of music.

We sat in the balcony in the last row, which lent itself to a lot of interesting observations, not to mention a prime people-watching spot. And boy, were people restless! I think New York suffers from that wanting-to-be-all-cultured-yet-can’t-sit-still-through-a-concert syndrome. I don’t think I have ever heard that much talking and rustling between pieces, as my friend Brittany pointed out.

Hahn-Bin’s repertoire for the night was, in a word (it’s a night of things in one word), unconventional. He played pieces from Schnittke to Cage to Kriesler, interspersed with some Chopin and Mozart. For those of you who don’t know, Schnittke’s music “was regarded as so radical that his musician friends did not dare to program him in the Soviet Union” (taken from Hahn-Bin’s program notes), and one of Cage’s most famous pieces is called 4’33”, where the pianist comes out and sits at the piano for four minutes and thirty-three seconds without playing a note. The whole idea behind it is to listen to what goes on in the ambiance, then to question whether such a piece is considered music, or some excuse for a cultural studies experiment.

I’m not qualified to talk about the intricate details of the music (that, and I can’t remember the details), but it was clear (at least up on the balcony) most people enjoyed the Chopin and the Mozart the best. Conventional classical music. Expected. Dare I say it…manufactured consent of what “music” and “high culture” are supposed to sound like. People in the row in front of me (four older women) were actually talking to each other during some of the non-Mozart/Chopin pieces. Talking!! Two of them left during intermission, and two others left during his last piece, Ludoslawsky’s Partita. Now, I don’t know if this happens all the time in New York, but I rarely see this happen, and I’ve been to my share of concerts.

The best part, though, was at the very end, when Hahn-Bin played his encore piece – a trope on “Silent Night” by Schnittke. This one I remember a bit more. Two verses of “Silent Night” interspersed with atonal chords, evoking laughter from the audience (you know, the part of the audience that actually “gets” it). One audience member, however, was not impressed. During the piece, I heard “not funny” and “poor taste” coming from this erm…rather large, hair follicle challenged and heterochallenged Caucasian (you’ll see why his race is important) sitting in the row below me. He had to be shushed by his partner and the audience members sitting behind him. When the encore was over and the applause died down, everyone got up to leave, and he and his partner ended up walking out of the concert hall right behind me and my friends. Here’s what I heard (in an almost-monologue, the same phrases repeated over and over indignantly)…and he was ANGRY and very LOUD:

“That was such poor taste. He shouldn’t make fun of other religions? How would he feel if we made fun of his religion? What is he…Buddhist? How would he feel if we made fun of Buddhism?”

Of course, because all Asians are Buddhists.

**Ok, here’s my academic take on the night…feel free to skip – and much thanks to Howard Becker for helping to inform my thoughts on this**

Moreover, the entire night brought up these questions that keep bouncing around in my head about music conventions and how these forms of music and “high culture” as we conventionally know it have become naturalized. Brittany brought up an interesting point that in our society, major keys are generally “happy”, and minor keys are “sad”. This dichotomy seems very biologically determinist to me, and I do not agree that we naturally feel happy when we hear things in a major key and sad when we hear things in a minor key (we had a lively discussion about this during intermission)…especially because concept of major and minor are based on the Western 12-tone scale. Middle Eastern music, Indian music, music from other cultures that do not adhere to the Western classical music conventions of a 12-tone scale don’t even HAVE major and minor keys. Funnily enough, the reason why we think music is so universal – that we hear stories of people in other cultures (usually cultures that are seen as “inferior” to our own) who cry when they hear Mozart for the first time – is probably because of the history of Western imperialism, especially for those of us who live in a Western society. Aren’t these stories simply perpetuating the naturalization of Western cultural imperialism in society? Of course, we’ll never hear of the stories where Mozart is played in another culture, and the other culture goes “WTF?” Not in our society.

I strongly believe that the way we listen to music is learned. We learn that “major” is happy, and “minor” is sad. We learn that Mozart and Chopin are beautiful, melodic, and Schnittke makes us go “WTF?” Our learning gets so internalized that we perceive it to be natural, and we dangerously lose the ability to enjoy things that don’t fit in our little box labeled “Music”. After all “music” is just a definition. What are its limits? Should it even have limits? (no…!!)

The classification of “classical music” in and of itself is a vehicle for an invisible authority of the so-called “high culture”. The setting of Carnegie Hall is another. The fact that we don’t wear jeans to listen to a concert (usually). All of this feeds into this pre-set system of aesthetic values, social status, and high culture that we associate with a certain type of music. When the preconceived notions of “classical music” are shattered, especially in a “high culture” venue like Carnegie Hall, people tend not to like that. It’s traumatic, like trying to make a circular peg fit in a square hole. You might have to shave off some of the peg, and some of the wood, to make it fit. I’m telling you, it’s traumatic. Almost physically. I won’t go too far down this road of how these concepts of venue, musical genre, contextualization, etc play into bigger ideas of authority, power, and credibility, but hopefully you get the point. Or, I’ll leave it to your imaginations.

All in all though, if it were your debut in Carnegie, would you rather play pieces that have been played hundreds, possibly thousands of times in the same hall before? Or would you try to be edgy and play something fresh that challenges the boundaries of classical music conventions – something really memorable? I think Hahn-Bin achieved the latter beautifully.

 
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Posted by on October 9, 2009 in Uncategorized